Wednesday, January 31, 2007

There are times in life when 'I love you' doesn't quite say as much about how we feel about each other.
We've been together for over a year and have been through so much, SO MUCH!
But in this state of bliss, evil kissed with wet lips, pen-filled fingertips.
The blotches on paper can only last so long, but in the end, only the story matters.
We started with a shattered glass heart, but it still comes down to a beauty and the beast fairytale.
The stars are shimmering, your eyes, glinting, I'm captivated by this celestial aura which binds us, intertwining us to emotion, a feeling, a lot like love but I know there's something more.
We have something an inexplicable amount of words can describe, maybe not even words reach this boundry, of how we kill lonliness.
This warmth i feel, too hard to conceal.

For those of you who know who this is for, and to you my darling...I lub chew many many! haha.

went to school today but nothing much la, just drifted as any other.went for counselling with mr hou and bused back home and here i am typing you this, as though it's gonna be up for the headlines. But nevertheless I'm keeping updated and yeah I'm gonna study now(and i'm serious) and maybe after that write a little more on my book then write a song, play guitar and slumber off dreaming of tiny, round, white furballs which chomp down on my flesh, i mean seriously, is that the best nightmare i can have?(i mean for real?) Anyway i should get going now, and to that fine young lady who is finally reading this...full regards for the whole year, that's if I don't wish you.

KvntingKrist asked the tree @ 12:46 AM |

{M.E. + T.}




Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Happy Birthday Ariel!
Signed out of school today cause I really had a bad headache...still no improvement in my ear and yeah still got my damn fever. But still went out with Joy and watched Requim, a German film, and it had Emily Rose written all over it. But i want to watch the movie Pan's Labyrinth, somebody ask me out...or might as well i ask somebody out, it's nc so please ensure you're sixteen...or at least look sixteen.

I wander this shadowy vista, everything's 19th century fin de siecle.
A white furball hops to my toes, its red, beady eyes resting on me,
it stands out from the lush greenery which engulfs this wonderland.
Serenity relaxing my body, the fresh air fills my lungs.
But everything's moving so slow, but I smile with wet lips and embrace peace.
My eyelids flutter as an orange butterfly dances past,
The descriptions of Darwin and Wallace cannot be as equal to what I have now.
Pure nature wrapping me with a sense of a calm mind and a peaceful heart.
But everything shakes, it all goes red.
Danger warnings hissing in my mind, the rabbit transforms into some kind of devil,
The butterfly becomes its wings, I am cornered by the devil himself.
But it all snaps back, I jump on my bed and grope on the sheets,
Sighing heavily, I whisper to myself and the darkness...Fuck this dream...

i wrote this from a recurring dream i've had these few restless nights...

KvntingKrist asked the tree @ 3:47 AM |

{M.E. + T.}




Monday, January 29, 2007

ahh damn sick today! sry guys i didn't go to school today. went to make ic with mom in the afternoon then went shopping with her at peninsula! bought a motorhead shirt, casualties shirt and cradle of filth tshirt(the one i've been eyeing for these few months) and a spike bracelet and a new stud belt as my old one snapped. found out i'm going to england/france/italy in june and going to hong kong disneyland september! haha feel so damn happy going so many places haha.


my eyes dancing around this vast space,
only the moon accompanied and brightened this lonely, breezeless night.
as i look left and right, i just see endless miles of sand, why am i lost?
how could i be so blur, so stupid, is this hell?
but for all i know, i am the sacrement of evil, death and torture,
just one mindless sinner, submiting to temptation, succumb to scum.
Angels crying, deamons gloating, filling my mind from the silence which pierces me to tunnel vision. i'm just a moving calamity, tormenting wherever i go, but it'll never end, but i want it to.
but now it's the opposite, i'm tortured and tormented, by my past deeds, all conjured back to me.

KvntingKrist asked the tree @ 4:08 AM |

{M.E. + T.}




Sunday, January 28, 2007

so this is how i look like..?not much of smiling, just some random picture of me in my room.

woke up this morning felt a piercing pain in my right ear, went to doctor and found out that my high fever, flu, tonsilitis and coughing put pressure into my right ear causing it to lose 70% hearing and 1000%pain for the time being, hope it ends sooner can't stand the pain. As i was flipping through my poem/song/story folio, i found $30! haha so i used it to buy some stuff at cold storage for my weeks breakfast...

Cataracts growing, my heart overflowing,
Screams fill the room, as i collapse.
Palm against my chest, fingertips in spasm,
My eyes grow wider, I have a heart attack.
Clattering jaws, grinding teeth, paling lips,
Eyes dancing here and there and as the pit opens,
Saint Lucifer rising, the earth is bowing and the mantra fills like light.
He is evil international, balsphem on the walls.
Vatican crashing like parables.
Bibles burning, satanists and Nazi and the Illuminati praise.
Wormwood has fallen, unto earth like the crucified.
Helter-skelter, sinner's pleasure, temptation uproaring from the good.
Revalation has begun, will God have this won?

I wrote this poem as i was researching for my book and to me, this is what might happen when revelation begins, people will cross over to evil as satan fools us into temptation, i don't really care i admit i'm a sinner, but i guess i sin to much, someone asked me if i'm paradoxial, i guess i am, but i'm also blasphemous, vulgar yet very charismatic, hehe, i'm sly, or at least i think i am.

KvntingKrist asked the tree @ 6:59 AM |

{M.E. + T.}




Saturday, January 27, 2007

Heya reporting frm the comfort of my crib, went for drama then to holland and went to eat at swensen's, then gelare then walked around with Dionel as Feng went to meet his friend and Jaime and Sammi went off after snacking with us at Swensen's. Today I'll infest your minds with not one but two peoms i wrote sometime this month for somebody and I think she knows who she is la, no more details disclosed.

I cannot promise perfection, I know you don't need it
I know you find me cheeky, my face says it all.
Can you feel worlds colliding? Cause we're falling into nothing.
But it's a feeling of mixed excitement, infatuation and euphoria.
To me you're like quicksand, absorbing me like a sponge.
And as your words rivert and reverberate in my mind,
I sit in wonder and awe of the pale, vulgar moon.
these exciting flames licking my insides, a sensation so indescribable.

the second one is,

In the eyes of the world, you are perfect.
But to me you have one flaw, and that is my weakness against you.
When i cradled you to dreams in my arms, the world spun to a new enchanting rythm.
When we kissed, something deep within danced, tickling my chest.
Till now, my head still spins like a blender of mixed anxiety and lust, to a more passionate me.
This mirage of reality defines the complexity of life,
And the simplicity if fantasy sparks the need.
My emptiness of a human mind, once a raging tsunami,
Now calm with serenity, where a breeze of thoughts gently sway against the current of my maniacal desires, a tender wind with the sadomasochistic waves, balancing like ying and yang.

Well i'll keep it updated soon enough, ps: when i don't i'm working on a short book or a song or my main book which i have yet to finish, but it'll take a few more months before that happens, i've already completed two of the three books and i'm weaving the intrigue and complications so it'll be a web of surprises and thrill, hope to publish it soon, till then, ciao.

KvntingKrist asked the tree @ 5:58 AM |

{M.E. + T.}




Friday, January 26, 2007

Hi!first post...it's more on my poems, rather on what my life is about so to the fine young lady who advised me to start this,you know who you are, pray it'll work out! and please ignore my blasphem and vulgarites on life yeah? Cause i'm so explicit heh. anw here's the first poem.

more of a person than human.

This calm surrender submits to my sweat,
The chrystalline solitude of silence provokes lonliness.
Ravaging me to a moodless sulk, I feel rejected, but it's part of life.
It entombs me to a blank nothingness of inner pain,
nothing will be my emollient, it's just sisyphean.
I'm so dirigible, such a deuced fool.
This pain, anger bottled within me makes me so violent, so unstable.
I've got so much to express and to little time to adress, but it all seems faraway.
It's been raining the past few days and today, it still showers, but i see a rainbow forming in the sky, the clouds will part and the sun will dry.
But of it all it makes me wonder, about how precious life is, what wonders are left to be discovered and how old the world is, or what lies after death and if there is a higher power and its evil representitive.
How would we fair in this gamble of truth and lies, it's questions like these that spark a billion answers.


so how is it? haha toodles to all see you around!

KvntingKrist asked the tree @ 3:45 AM |

{M.E. + T.}